Yesterday was an incrediblly terrible day. Just flat out sucked. Three things happened yesterday to completely ruin my day my weekend and my just tear me down when life seemed at its peek.
To start the day off I had to leave school for a fueneral for my Great Gandma Standage, always a god sign of things to come. I feel bad though because in that room full of people eyes red with tears, I had one to shed for this lady. I did not know her. Any death is terrible but I could not shed a tear for this woman, whom without I would not exist. I can't help but feel like I have no reason to cry for her. I want to, I want to mourn and he sad for the loss of her in our lives and rejoice because she is in a better place but I can't I just can't.
I had to leave the services myself because I had to work, or at least I thought I did. I, with my mom, went to Hot Dog on a Stick to start my schedualed shift. When I get there my boss tells me to come around front (we always use the backdoor to get to work). "This can't be good" I decide as I made my way around. She fired me. Apparently I am not clean enough for those anal freaks so I am out of a job. So my day so far is: leave school-go to fueneral-about to tell you-get fired. Yay me.
There is one thing I left out though. Between the fueneral and getting fired something else happened, something to ruin my day completely and totally and just break my spirit. We had just gotten back from the burial and went to a relatives for a lunch and memorial service. While there I didn't really care what was going on so I decided to text my girlfriend while I was dosing off. In short she freaked out that we are getting too close and that she's not used to someone caring about her (her family is pretty uncaring at times) and she broke up with me... So now I'm freaking out and completely distraut, but I'm working through it.
God I feel like the cards have all been dealt agaist me. That no matter how hard I try I just get nothing in ther end. I feel like someone is against me and just screwing me over time and time again.
And here's the icing on this cake of despair: I had to get a refund for that amp I bought and I'm not acually getting any money from it. I HAVE NO AMP. I can't even hear myself play. And this morning I got pulled over becase I failed to yeild at a stop sign luckily enough the officer let me off with a warning. So I guess my one bit of god luck came from not so good luck.
huh....I want a goose....I think it would cheer me up....or you know what a swift kick in the nuts, that would just make my day!!!
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Oh Mike, I am so sorry you had a rotten day. I'm sure it does feel like the whole world is against you. Just remember that you are loved and that you are never given more trials than what you can handle. This craziness and hurt will end and you will have gained a lot of wisdom from it if you keep a positive outlook.
She dumped you by text? interesting. I'm so sorry that your day, and i'm sure longer has been so awful. Keep your head up, but know that it is ok to be sad and down every once in a while. It is healthy to go through bad and good things and have emotions about it
i'm sorry. Every time I read this post I cry. I don't even know how to tell you... I have no words... I'm sorry... Mike... I can't voice it...nevermind
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